Excruciating Suffering: My Battle Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It was a dreary weekday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp pain bloomed behind my right eye. Then came rapid shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.
The attacks appeared frequently that autumn, and again in spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-blown pain in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
This condition often begin with severe discomfort around a single eye that persists for three hours.
Approximately 1 in 1000 people are affected by the condition, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually start with abrupt, severe agony focused on one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have the episodic form, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, characterized by the lack of long symptom-free periods.
What connects sufferers is the intensity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. Another discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.
Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, like several triggers, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.
Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.
Nevertheless, the failure to organize life around unpredictable pain took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been described across history. “The first description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an evil entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.
Historical healing texts suggest unusual treatments for what modern observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.
It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.
The disorder were only officially recognised by international headache societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel that delivers blood to the head. Prominent experts in treating the condition explain this.
In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, published in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.
In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor researched his complaints.
Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary headache disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough patient history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.
A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes dentists still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack eased.
Official guidance on treatment advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which apparently helps manage the bouts of well-known individuals.
But leading neurologists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the bout dictates the treatment.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are managed with abortive therapy only. Longer or more intense periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the area of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.
The national guidelines need updating to reflect a